Aphonia

WHO: Felix, Bernie, Betsy, Barbara, & Simon
WHAT: Xavierites check out the new facilities and have a bit of fun.
WHERE: Large Training Room - Xavier's School - Westchester
WHEN: August 2, 2010
WATCH FOR: A flying lion, purple goods, and none other than the 3 Bs.

( Down girl. Down. )

WHO: Felix & Bernie
WHAT: Felix spills his troubles out to Bernie.
WHERE: Junior Lounge - Xavier's School - Westchester
WHEN: July 31, 2010
WATCH FOR: Felix stepping away from another's territory...again.

( Epiphany? )

WHO: Tyson, Felix, & Bernie
WHAT: Boredom sets in, so a little drinking game ensues
WHERE: Common Room - Xavier's
WHEN: April 2, 2010
WATCH FOR: Felix stepping away from another's territory, and Bernie in her jammers.

( Anything with the potential for embarrassment is fun in my books )

Note: This is a verrry old log from June.

WHO: Bernie, Adam, & Nikki
WHAT: The three shop for the end of the year dance.
WHERE: Front Grounds to Bronx Mall
WHEN: June 24, 2009
WATCH FOR: Ruffly shirts, fitting hot pants, Adam's cute little bum...actually no. Don't look at that. Its CLAIMED.

( Am I sexy? )

Okay soo I love Shannyn Sossamon, but she's starting to look a little too drugged up for my taste.

So I'm choosing Jessica Alba as Bernie's actress. She's healthier looking. Please bear with me while I make picture changes.

WHO: Bernie, Wesley, & Betsy
WHAT: Wesley & Bernie meet
WHERE: Student Galley
WHEN: February 19, 2010 (I think)
WATCH FOR: Card castle destruction, Bernie's crazy temper, & Betsy having to deal with it all.

( West, Wesley West )

WHO: Nikki & Bernie
WHAT: Lunch in Chinatown
WHERE: Lee's Dim Sum
WHEN: October 9, 2009 (I think)
WATCH FOR: Controlled rage, major hating on hate crimes, & other heart felt stuff.

( So cheesy it makes me barf )

God the finger lakes are amazing. I can't believe I've lived in NYC my whole life & never took a trip away. What the hell was I thinking? So I'm staying at this small motel nearby Seneca lake. My budget doesn't include fancy resorts or hotels. But there's a nearby camping area that lets me enter in everyday for a small fee. I usually take pictures by the lakeside or pictures of the people around.

I started to get bored after a bit though, from doing the same thing everyday. At first I checked out the events of the campsite. Pretty lame. Full of family fun stuff. Not that I'm against family fun, but there's no FUN if you don't have a FAMILY. In all actuality, it made me feel more lonely. So I just went out to a small town close by to check out the night life.

I made some friends with the natives! Help me, this is starting to sound like a documentary. They recieved me well and invited me to feast and celebrate with them! They danced around a fire to some strange music. Must be some sort've rain dance.

Just kidding. It was actually just a bunch of the local teenagers who showed me around. Sometimes I went home to eat dinner with their families. There were small town carnivals. Those were pretty fun. The dancing and strange music was teen night at a night club. A lot of kids like techno there, which I'm not used to. And the fire? Strobe light. And then when we left it started to rain.

You know. I miss school. I miss the people at school. When I stepped into Grand Central I was tempted to turn around and leave. Yes, I'm having fun, but it different than having fun with the kids at school. I wanna go home actually, but then I remember that I came here to clear my mind. And its not clear yet, at least not fully.

So just a little while longer. I hope the school hasn't changed that much.

( OOC Update )

[EDIT]
Forgot one pic. Its a Bernie & Adam one. :)
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36965614/
[/EDIT]

So yeah. I told you I had a few character sketches lying around. :) I finally got around to scanning them. They`re all just doodles, so sorry if they`re messy. I plan to re-do one for Nikki.

So here is:
Nikki
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36964882/
Adam
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36966276/
Sally
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36966508/
Bernie
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36966818/

Enjoy!

The ghetto is probably the worst place to distract you from your problems.

Cause you'll end up meeting seemingly telapathic person, who subtly reminds you just why you came there in the first place.

I'm never going to the ghetto EVER again.

I can't sleep again. For different reasons this time.

For the first time in 4 years I did it. I hurt Adam. I hurt him. I saw him collapse to his knees, and then my whole body just froze. I couldn't move. I panicked. Just like the way I panicked when I was twelve. And Jayven. He wouldn't stop talking. But its not like I heard him. I just shut everything out after Adam fell. I thought I had it under control. I thought no more accidents were gunna happen. I don't wanna hurt anyone anymore.

I can't sleep. I need a walk. I ne Smokes. Where'd I put them? I need some real bad.

WHO: Aero, Bernie, Adam, Jayven
WHAT: All four causing a scene outside Starbucks
WHERE: Starbucks & Greenwich Village
WHEN: July 20, 2009
WATCH FOR: Jealousy, rage, and a whollle lotta spilled coffee.

( Change? Where is the scandel? )

I had a journal entry ready to write about today. But it left my head.

I can't think about anything else right now.

WHO: Adam, Bernie
WHAT: Angsty and emotional conversation
WHERE: Bernie's Room
WHEN: July 18, 2009
WATCH FOR: Adam wanting to be just like Yogi bear a girl.

( Move over chubs )

WHO: Nikki, Bernie
WHAT: Having a chitty chat
WHERE: Nikki's room
WHEN: July 18, 2009
WATCH FOR: Nikki stuffing her face with a sandwhich.

( It's closed off to me )

WHO: Jace, Chaz, Sally, Adam, Bernie
WHAT: Water gun fight
WHERE: The Gymnasium
WHEN: July 06, 2009
WATCH FOR: Jace and his big bad balloons. Chaz l33t ninja skillz. Sally lucking out of an enema. Bernie crying. Adam...being just there. Aw.
LOGGER: Bernadette Jerica "exxtreeemme tag" Ames

( Lets do something that builds character! )

Needless to say, this week started off pretty badly. I only heard things about the common room fight between Jace and Adam. So in reality I didn't know the truth. No one told me how each was doing. I really thought someone got hurt. Sam was having troubles with her ex. I felt bad for her. She says he wasn't a jerk, but I can't help but agree with Nikki on this. What a biggoted jerk! She deserves someone better. Someone who would care for him better.

Despite the harsh beginning it ended well. I got to talk to Adam, and then 'celebrated' about the good turn outs of the hearing. More importantly he's okay at least physically. I was so relieved when I saw him. As for his head, well he's gunna be okay. I know it. And Jace is fine too. He seems a bit down, but I hope everyone can help lift him up. He's not a hopeless case. Then again, I never think anyone as a hopeless case.

That drunk man on the stre I couldn't sleep again because of it. I wish there was an off button somewhere.

I walked into this think called the Dream House. Mercedes (I think that's her name) is the chick that runs it. She says she had a certain affinity with people, that's why she became a Psychologist. Thats interesting. Anyhow, the Dream House was a pretty good concept. No I take that back. Its like a dream. Its not real though you feel like it is until reality hits you. Forgive me for being a little skeptical. Maybe its just cause I've never seen it in action.

That water gun fight was a great way to kick start the upcoming week though. Adam and Jace seem to be getting slowly along. Jace seemed happier. Adam was following his restriction. Good boy. Chaz went hardcore on me and Sally. I still have to show him the picture. Brianna'll kill me, but then again G.I. Joe didn't seam like he was going to spare my life there in the gym. Ah, they're made for each other.

I don't know what's going on.
I know he's hurt.
I can't find him.
I should be there for him.
I gotta find him.
I wanna be there for him.
Where is he?
I'll go crazy.
Where is he?


I can't sleep again. I need another walk.

Drama.

Everyone's got it. Some more than other. Some deal it differently than other.

And what am I doing? Sitting to the side to watch it all, like reality television. Not that I'm saying everyone's problems are silly and stupid. I'm not saying everyone is petty and vain. Its just that, it hurts to see people like this. Its not just one, it everyone. Its not just Jace anymore. Its Adam, its Sam. And heck, it was over a month ago, but I could still feel the misery Nikki felt like the day she was wandering Chinatown. It was so familiar to me. When I looked at her I thought I was twelve again, playing with Walden.

You know how deaf people can turn off their hearing aids whenever they want? Yeah, that's what I wanna do. I want a power that could just turn off my eye sight whenever I wanted to. A deaf person is so overwhelmed with the noise. Its the same I suppose, except for me...its emotion. And that's the thing! Its not even my own emotions. Its friends, classmates, strangers on the street.

Its like I'm one big melting pot. I don't even remember how I feel anymore. I just haven't been able to sleep at all because I keep on remembering how excited that little kid on the corner was? Or how pissed off that suited man was when he walked out of his office building.

I need a walk.